Mothers day

I had a lovely mother's day on Saturday the girls & Charlie treated me to tea at our local which was very nice. On Sunday i got a craft gift voucher from the shop i got my cuttlebug from that was from Lesley so looking forward to spending it. Debbie got me a box of ferrero rocher which i sat& ate today she also got me a few bits & pieces for my holiday & a lot of other nick knacks & a bouquet of flowers between the 2 girls Oh & charlie gave me some money so i will use that along with my craft voucher. So i had a lovley time & i have 2 beautful daughter's & a fab hubby so all in all i'm very lucky

Feeling better

I'm starting to feel a good bit better about things we have decided to go to Charlie's mum's surprise 70th birthday party as Charlie's sisters were on at him every night ok i feel we have been badgered into something we didn't want to go to but we have said we will be there now. Lesley said it will probably be a good night & we will be seeing people we haven't seen since Charlie's dad died 12 years ago. Got asked to make 2 baby boy cards i really couldn't be bothered but i thought i had better as i don't want to loose my customer & once i got every thing out & made the cards i started feeling good & was pleased with the cards. Today i sat & put lots of quickcutz hand bags together fiddly i know but it had to be done tomorrow i'm planning to put together some Ellison's little dresses & hangers together & then i can start making cards again at last.

Today

Still feeling very down just feel like putting my trainers on & running far far away & never coming back.Last night i thought i was having a heart attack was getting pain in my chest & was sweating but this has happened to me before & it was a panic attack i was taking so I'm sure that's what it was last night. I think it's just all the stress I'm under that's making me like this when i told the doctor the first time it happened he said it was an anxiety attack & this has been happening to me since my dad died.Doctor said if it happens again & he will up the dose on my antidepressants which is quite high as it is so i will carry on & hopefully i will start feeling better about things.Isn't it funny how you can be so happy & content with your life one day then feel hopeless,useless the next Lesley asked me to make a baby card for her & i told her i couldn't be bothered so she said she will just buy one from the shop so now i feel guilty just because i cant be bothered making cards at the moment I'm supposed to make a 40th & charlie's mum's 70th birthday cards but i may well buy them from the shop shame on me i know but that's just how i feel.Hopefully this feeling will pass soon ( I never even made any mother's day cards bought from the shop)

Feel so low

I'm putting down my feelings on hear rather on CBC as i feel a bit of a fool as there are people a lot worse off than me. Now where do i begin at the beginning i suppose we have been invited to a surprise 40th birthday party on 31st march we have known and replied yes we would be there just after Christmas so we were all really looking forward to it it's a friend's step mum's party we were at her dad's 50th party in September which was brill ok i hear you asking what's the problem well charlie's mum will be 70 on 5th April but all the family through in Glasgow have decided to have a surprise birthday party for her only it's on the same night as our friend's. So charlie told his sister that we have already accepted the invite to the other party & she goes nuts saying mum's party is more important than some friend's step mother ok that might be the case but to give you an idea charlie's dad died 12 years ago & he hasn't seen 1 sister or his only brother since the funeral. They haven't fell out they just don't keep in touch any time we are in Glasgow we make it our point to visit his mum i have to put a face on as she tolerates me as do i her.Anyway the upshot of it is Charlie is being pressured into going Debbie & Lesley have already said they are not coming with us as they would rather go to the other party so now we are all arguing with one another over this. Charlie told his sister we couldn't really afford to come down to Glasgow as it's so expensive on the train then there's taxi's,drink present ect which really wouldn't have been a problem but Charlie got told on Monday that all over time has stopped so we are going to drop around £300,00 a month & Lesley has moved in with Blair so that's another £200.00 a month which is a lot of money on top of all that we have to pay the rest of our holiday to Majorca by 31st march my pre payment presciption is due on Saturday & DON'T even mention Florida. So have been very down the past couple of weeks cant even be bothered making cards i have lots of new stuff but just cant be a***d.Hope anyone who reads this doesn't feel depressed just reading this post i know reading it back to myself has made me feel worse. Oh & my mum is going back into hospital on 11th April to get her other knee done & don't know if i will get down to see her as Lesley is working & i wont travel on my own (It's a fear i have) Gosh i give up think i will go to bed & stay there for a LONG LONG time. Thanks for looking i may well post again soon then again i might not

What have i been

What have i been up to the last few day's well let me tell you i have been cutting lots & lots of different dies with my new cuttlebug i think it's brill so easy to use to. Now the $64,000 question is have you made lots of nice cards? Eh no i just love cutting & want to wait till i have lots more die cuts then there will be no stopping me. I have set myself a job in the afternoon instead of sitting in front of the tv i go into the kitchen & start cutting & before you know it it's tea time.Charlie & the girls are quite suprised in that i actually use the cuttlebug i have a zip emate & never really used it as it took up to much room on my kitchen table then it had to get packed away so i just went right off it. My zip emate is going to a good home i'm giving it to my sister as she's decided to get back into making cards although she does wedding stationery & favours but she wants a machine that will cut the sizzix tag die's as a lot of her customers are wanting favours with say a candle wrapped in net with a tag with names on so i told her she can have mine as it's only collecting dust. I'm a good big sister i'm not giving her any my dies though she can buy them her self (im not that good he he) Anyway that's what i have been up to so watch this space & you might just see some cards he he.

Last night

Well last night was a great night we were out seeing the band Lesley & Blair have booked for their wedding & they are very good singing everything from the 60s up to today's music rock & roll & country needless to say i was up dancing all night. Our family come from Glasgow & they all like a good wedding/party so the dance floor will be full all night being out last saturday then again last night has really taken it out of me but hey it was worth it. If i hear good music i just have to get up & dance so needless to say i'm sore today mostly in my back but hey we wont be out for a few weeks now so that gives me time to recover.Debbie & Lesley are away getting mesured up for susans wedding they are both bridesmaids but they have already been messured in another shop but susan has changed her mind & is getting the dresses from another shop.As far as i know she is still having emerald green bridesmaids dresses. Oh well thats all for today hope fully i will update again soon if i can get into my blog as i'm having major problems with it & the only way into it at the moment is if i leave a message on someone else's blog so TTFN

Tomorrow

Well tomorrow night charlie,debbie,lesley,blair blair's mum & dad & myself are going to hear the band that lesley & blair have booked for their wedding. Lesley, blair & blair's parents have heard them before in fact blair's parents know the 2 lads & i have heard their demo cd which sounds very good. We all agreed we wanted some one who could give us a bit of everything ie 60s,70s,country ect & these boys play just that so hopefully they will play something for everyone as my family love dancing & if the band/Dj is good we fill the floor all night. Dont know if i mentioned on my old blog that Blair & lesley are not having a piper instead they are having blair's friend who play's the accordion so lesley has asked him to play flower of scotland for walking down the isle to & marie's wedding for walking back up they just wanted something different. The boy is also going to play some back ground music whilst they sign the register & again when the band have a break.So far everything is going well just about everything is booked so we all just sit back & relax (I wish) He he